Lily didn't know if she could bear it. Having to confront her deepest fears and leave behind the thoughts hse knew-albeit paralyzing- felt familiar. To part with her old ways would seem too free, too light. But maybe what she wanted still was control. But to run on the mountains and leap in the hills with her Beloved. Did she want to be set free? She did. In her heart she knew that there was no earthly joy that could compare to the love found in her heavenly Father. There was no knowledge that would satisfy her like the deep peace the Lord's wisdom brought. There was no comfort in the mere creations of man. All her Father had- the majestic oceans, glorious skies, and tallest mountains, were hers to rejoice in and proclaim, how wonderful and marvelous her Father's creations.