Lord, I'm worried about going to Naperville. I'm worried that the saints don't love me that much. I'm worried they've forgotten me and don't care that much about me. I'm worried they don't love me, but that's not true. Thank you for their love Lord.

Talking to the Lord is a little like this There are things you know you should say But you just can't say them Your heart is stubborn It wants it's own way It longs for control The Lord would whisper He would not demand The submission is sweet Out of love In love From love It surrenders It is then free

For most of my life, I despised being ordinary. I was always thinking of how to create special moments-ones that were unique and worth rememebering. Different from everyday experiences. In this chase for "special" moments, I found myself exhausted and depleted-far from the joy I hoped to feel. Starting in 202, during the pandemic lockdown, I found myself finding peace I had never expereinced before in the most mundane tasks and the mot ordinary days. In those quiet moments, I could slowly hear the gentle and soft voice of God. The unhurried pace of life helped me to find joy in my body, soul, and most of all, my spirit. I came to learn that growing in the Lord does not always happen in special moments, but in the everyday rhythms we create and follow, so that no matter the circumstance, we are able to just taste and see the abudance of God's life. I wish I could say my life is always like this and I'm alway following these rhythms- sadly, that is the case. However, because I have come to practice these rhythms and experience the joy and life that flow from them, I can return to them. Oh, believer, it is in these slow moments, and dare I say, boring moments, that we can touch and enjoy Christ alone. When the gentellest breeze and beam of sunlight remind us just how sweet and dear our Lord Jesus is. This is my song, this is my prayer. Lord be mine in the ordinary days. Then I may remember how everything points to you.

Dear Carol, You wish your parents talked to you more. You wish your mom and dad would just love you for you, and not for what you do. You wih they could have let you greive. However, throughout all of this, the Lord was writing a different story. One of immense grace and kindness, where He never left you alone. He was alway with you and taught you that He is with you as you walk through deep waters. He showed you love, deep, real love in so many way. In the word, people, even Christian, have a joy that is not very deep. It is a joy that can be taken away. I think you've taught me over the years that real joy is surrendering to your love. It is knowing you. Lord, I trust you. I praise you. Praise the Lord! May my praise join with the other saints to declare your worthiness.

Lilly has been a dear friend to me. Her spirit and her presence feel so safe and like I'm in a hug. I think it's because her walk with the Lord has been sincere and genuine. Just as Joy and Jackie's, and Eden's. I feel so lucky to have always been with brothers and sisters whose love for the Lord is not a facade. They are not hiding anything. What a privilege.

The moments that are hardest with the Lord are those of surrender. When He is asking me to do something or give up something I don't think I can. I want to hold on so tightly it feels like I'm going to get robe burn, but still that feeling is somehow more comfortable than letting go. It's the moments when He asks me to receive Him as my whole satisfaction, and my heart just sighs and clenches tighter. Lord, don't let me go. Come again in your mercy and grace and I would unclench my heart to you.

Hello! What a happy happenstance you stumbled upon this place! I hope it would be what you need today-maybe the words would bring you the joy of the dappled sun in the trees, or the melancholy yet refreshing sprinkle of rain on a warm spring day. However you are, I hope these words can transport you to the most wonderful place I know- the safe haven which is the Savior's breast. May you abide there now and forever more.

Dove was just shy of being 12. This meant she was still 11 on the cusp of being 12, but also afraid of turning 12, and wanted to hold it at far away as possible, like a healthy person picking up a dirty kleenex. Being eleven meant being allowed to cuddle under a blanket when she said the wrong thing again at school and eating cookies with root beer at the end of a long week to forget the mental gymnastics of balancing school and friends. Yes, twelve meant you needed to be someone and Dove very much didn't know who she wanted to be. Joy, I'm sad. I don't see anything good in me, and when I do, it goes away so quickly. The Lord's plan never changes for you. I want so badly to do all these big things for Him, but all He asks of me is to come. To come to Him just as I am. Story ideas -pride and dishonesty -not being self-aware Antagonists dishonesty insecurity that they are not the best Protagonist Journey of being insecure, and doubtful to firm To go through ascension one must go through cruxifiction Instead of despair find comfort in prayer

Another week. It seems at the beginning of a new year, the idea of possibilities and dreams can overwhelm and dibilitate one's hopes. This week I found myself feeling despair and hopelessness often. It seems like God has plans, but I continually feel paralyzed due to despair and hopelessness. I dream of being someone who can stand solidly for the Lord, but my character is weak. My flesh is week. However, the Lord reminded me and was my hope this week. He is the gospel. The gospel is not a one time thing. It is something we need to tell ourselves when the days grow weary and the moments grow cold. The Lord is always new. He is always resurrection life. Jesus, thank you You turn my despair into prayer. Lord, I get hopeless so often but thank you you save me again and again. Some moments from this week: Singing with Philip Going to the children's museum with Eden, Jeremiah, and William Resuming our Bible study Telling Mrs. Rasdell that it was Anne's birthday

Grace is a beautiful things For us to receive Freely Always Abundant Then how come we feel lacking? Because we do not ask Jesus, I ask for grace today. Show me the limits of myself Then grace pours down like a mighty stream A gentle whisper A new life

Lily didn't know if she could bear it. Having to confront her deepest fears and leave behind the thoughts hse knew-albeit paralyzing- felt familiar. To part with her old ways would seem too free, too light. But maybe what she wanted still was control. But to run on the mountains and leap in the hills with her Beloved. Did she want to be set free? She did. In her heart she knew that there was no earthly joy that could compare to the love found in her heavenly Father. There was no knowledge that would satisfy her like the deep peace the Lord's wisdom brought. There was no comfort in the mere creations of man. All her Father had- the majestic oceans, glorious skies, and tallest mountains, were hers to rejoice in and proclaim, how wonderful and marvelous her Father's creations.

I've been married for nearly 4 months. A mere speck of sand in the vast ocean of all the experiences that marriage brings, but I love my husband and wanted to write about it. I always said that I was someone who didn't care about boys. I wasn't like other girls. Or so I thought. Looking back, I did start thinking about boys from a young age. I observed my dad and how he treated me and my mom. We didn't agree on everything, and had our years of distance and misunderstandings, but ultimately, his love shown through and it imprinted on my heart more than I could ever know. Fast forward to college. I started thinking more carefully about marriage and what it was. Somethings I knew before I got married: 1) Marriage is for the Lord. He deligths in pure love. Just as He loved and gave Himself up for the church, He loves when this is manifested in man. A love that is unfailing and everlasting-not because we are perfect, but because His love is. What I know now: Marriage is not an instituion, but two people who simply care for each other. At the end of our days, my only hope for my husband is that he is presented more beautiful before the Lord. He would be more humble, joyful, and loving towards the Lord. I can pray for him, laugh with him, sacrifice for him, and even help him to grow. It's fun to grow old with someone and help someone to grow. I can't believe sometimes the Lord would grant me this privilege. It's so fun to experience love and help from someone.

"Don't rush!" These were words I heard frequently, even daily, most of my life growing up. I was always ready to go on to the next thing before I had properly even enjoyed what was in front of me. My parents often had to tell me to slow down eating my dinner, doing my chores, and even playing with certain toys. It just always seemed I was ready for the next thing before it even began. Even my piano teacher would tell me to stop rushing because I would always be on to the next measure before the last one was done. I don't know at what point exactly in my life I started to realize this kind of life style was unenjoyable, and unsustainable. My heart always seemed to want the next thing because it wasn't satisfied with what was in front of me. I always thought there was more-something more to be done, to explore, to attain to. I rushed through mundane tasks to get to what I thought were more important tasks. How foolish it all seems now. I don't know if it makes me old, or I've just come to realize the mundane things are what makes life beautiful. Scubbing and rinsing the dishes until they are sparkling clean can be laborious, but I treasure this chore now because of how it forces me to slow down. The routine I have after dinner gives me time to think about nothing else except to just reflect on my day. Folding laundry is not my forte. I can never seem to get the sleeves on a t-shirt to line up, and it feel likes magic when other people seemingly hold up the t-shirt and fold it in one fell swoop while I try and end up with a sack of potatoes. Slowing down doesn't mean I'm suddenly a laundry wizard. But it has taught me to enjoy the half hour I have each week to watch a video or two while slowly doing this task that I feel like many busy people scoff at. "It's unimportant", or "I have better things to do," they might say. I know because I used to be one of them, and sometimes I still am. When I am having a particularly busy week, these little tasks are the first ones I think I can let go of, but every time, I realize the small tasks are what keeps me going. Maybe this relates to our relationship with the Lord as well. We can never let go of the small moments we have before Him. We will have big milestones with Him, but they are built by the little stones and pebbles we give him each day. My prayer is that I may never despise the small things. They are really the treasures that one day grow into a mighty mountain.